Feeding the wrong wolf

Do you recognize the title phrase? It’s from a movie called Tomorrowland (Spoilers ahead!!!!). The movie was released in 2015 and I just watched it yesterday. I don’t know how I pick my movies, I guess it’s my mood but I am not really sure. For the past few days, I am a little obsessed with the actress Britt Robertson and I am just watching her movies one by one. Yes I usually do this : pick one actor/actress  and watch all their movies. If you are wondering why Britt Robertson, honestly I don’t have an answer for you. It might be because she was dating Dylan O’Brien.( Explaining my love for this guy might need another blog post).

So coming back to the point,  I just happened to stumble across Tomorrowland and  I watched it. The movie was okay-ish with a not so mesmerizing plot but I really liked a few of the quotes and hence the title of this post.  Britt Robertson’s character Casey Newton tells us a story in the movie, the one that she has been told her whole life.

There are two wolves and they are always fighting. One is darkness and despair. The other is light and hope. Which wolf wins?

Whichever one you feed.

I know, it’s nothing new. I have been hearing similar things my entire life.  But for some reason, these words had an impact on me. I realized how often I feed the wrong wolf. And I decided these words are going to change my life.(Funny thing is-I do that whenever I come across a good quote.  Let’s hope  it really works this time!)

No,no that’s not all.  There is one more. And I gotta tell you, these lines really impressed me and they come from villain of the  movie.

In every moment there’s the possibility of a better future, but you people won’t believe it. And because you won’t believe it you won’t do what is necessary to make it a reality. So, you dwell on this terrible future. You resign yourselves to it for one reason, because *that* future does not ask anything of you today. So yes, we saw the iceberg and warned the Titanic. But you all just steered for it anyway, full steam ahead. Why? Because you want to sink! You gave up! That’s not the monitor’s fault. That’s yours.

I was moved by these lines, because this is what I do. Accept a possible future even though it’s  terrible just because it’s easy. I can just sit there and it will happen anyway. Unlike the possibility of  a bright future, that requires you to work hard and still might not happen at all.

So what do I do next? I intend to put these things into my life. So I was working in office today and I saw a girl that I don’t really like.Now, I am never mean to people but sometimes I might just subconsciously try to hurt them just because they have hurt me or maybe I  just think that it’s okay  to not be good when other person is  “bad”. Like I would know how to judge good and bad!

But you know what! It’s not worth it. When you send negative vibes towards a person it just all comes back. (At least in my case it does.) I feel happy for a while for hurting the person who hurt me in first place but after a while it eats me away. It turns me into that person. So Cady Heron here turns into Regina George. Ha!  A  Mean Girls reference! (Aren’t I amazing? No seriously , watch that movie. It might seem too girly at first. But trust me it’s worth it.) My point being, I need to stop worrying about assholes that annoy me. I need to stop feeding the big bad wolf. I know I can’t possibly smile at people who hurt me, but I can try and ignore them. Good vibes only- that’s the motto I need in my life right now.